Pulmonary Archery

Waiting on my 3DS to install some games, plus I'm feeling pretty down tonight and need a distraction while I wait, so it's update timeee.

Started doing that art thing with my friend this week, and both times were fun. Second time was more just socializing while I played around with Copics, but the first time had a bit more going on, with them screen sharing to me when I started having a small panic about how the hell to do hair. Their explanation was simple but it was sort of an eye-opener for me? I was frustrated that I could only use my screen tablet in the other room though, so I picked up a spare cable so I can easily take it between computers now. The only downside is that I guess Clip Studio charges you $4/mo to be able to use 4 Pro on more than one device?? I think that is... extremely silly. So my desktop has CSP1 and my laptop has CSP4.

I also cut up a bunch of my different papers into smaller pieces so I can sample things without feeling like I just used the center of the page and then wasted the rest trying to experiment. But I have to remind myseeelf that practice isn't wasting anything, because the only way you get better with something is by practicing.

So now, here's just hoping that I can stop being so easily distracted and actually sit down to do some art practice. I wanna stop hating my art and get out of this 10+ year spiral I've been in. I did it for writing, I can do it for art, too.


I will admit, it was kinda hard staying of Bsky for the first few days, but now it's really been not so bad. I still check my art/writing accounts once or twice a day, but it goes so quickly that I don't spend a literal half hour just catching up.

Strangely, scrolling my writing account's feed has inspired me a bit to get back to my writing projects. Again, the hardest part is dealing with distractions and trying to distance myself from them. But I think that'll improve very soon.

The other hard thing is trying to find a good balance between art time, writing time, and study time. I should really give writing more time than the others, since it's more my focus for now. But sometimes I just feel like there aren't enough hours in the dayyy for everything I wanna dooo.
I did end up finishing Lunacid not long after my last post. I'm shocked by how much I adored that game. It was just so memorable and knowing that there's DLC coming for it has me so excited. I meant to start playing Emerald Dragon right after, but then I started Black Mesa for a friend, and then I started Legacy of Ys??? So I'm clearly having a time of it sticking to what I say I'll do . Maybe after Ys II (or even I, if I don't feel like II right after), I'll start Emerald Dragon. I'm in the final dungeon now anyway, so it's only a matter of time.

... Didn't I say last time that I'd do my annual game post? I completely forgot to do that, so I should probably start drafting that for real soon.


As for other stuff going on; almost totally off this SSRI. It's not helping me, the side effects are a pain on my life. After a few more weeks, I'll be off it for good.

Still no real news on Lacie. It's frustrating, because now she's starting to have some issues again, so we're keeping an eye on her in case something escalates.

Lifestyle changes are hit and miss right now, in terms of success rate. We're keeping at them, though, because we really want to make these changes for the good of our lives. I know it's hard to keep up changes after the start of a new year, but it's definitely doable.